As of tomorrow (Tuesday) I'll be 39 weeks pregnant. Yikes. In just a little over a week, we will be a family of five. FIVE. eek. and yay...but mainly eek. :) People keep asking me if I'm "ready" or not. That's such a complicated question. On one hand - I'm ready for this phase to be over with. This pregnancy has been a bit rough on me and I'll be happy once I have my semi-normal body back. It'll be nice to be able to wake up and not get sick or eat something and not feel sick or pick up toys without getting winded or have enough room on my lap for cuddles. I know it's all just apart of the whole pregnancy/growing a baby process but it'll be nice once this phase is done. However.....that also means she'll be here. That means that we'll have a 3 year old, a 2 year old and a newborn. *deep breath* And I remember all too well how hard a newborn is. It's funny, when we were expecting Rylee (and I think this is probably a pretty general statement for all new parents) - towards the end of the pregnancy, we just wanted to meet our little girl. We knew it was going to be tough but those thoughts were trumped by us fantasizing of her sweet little hands and soft skin and wondering if she'd have hair or not and dressing her up in adorable little pink outfits. :) We knew that it'd be tough but we didn't KNOW how it was going to be. Then when we were pregnant with Jake, I knew that having a newborn was going to be hard but didn't quite understand the transition that it was going to be with having a newborn and a toddler. But now......now we know. And we remember all too well the demanding, sleepless nights. The fact that you've been up for hours on end feeding, being spit up on, rocking and walking and rocking some more finally to have the baby asleep and just when you think you'll be able to get a little bit of shut eye yourself (or an actual shower) your toddler wakes up from a good 11 or 12 hour nighttime of rest-- full of energy and ready to start the day! And now we'll have two little energy-filled toddlers ready for breakfast and coloring and cutting and tracing and playdough and outside play and probably some good old fashion fighting thrown in too. ;) And that kind of makes me nervous [read:out of my mind scared]. How we'll handle it all and what not. How we'll be able to juggle a crying baby and two toddlers fighting over who had the puzzle first. And trying to talk about sharing while nursing a squirming infant. But I also know that it'll all just work out. Somehow. Someway. We adjusted with Rylee. We figured it out with Jake. And it'll all just work with Brooke too. I don't know how exactly, but I know it will. It's amazing the strength God gives you when you need it. He hasn't failed us before and He won't fail us now. So I just keep praying and keep breathing and keep reminding myself that God gave us Brooklyn at this time for a reason and having her is a tremendous blessing. People do this all the time....and they all survive. So will we. We'll bend and adjust and some days we'll thrive and some days we'll just survive. But we'll get through it. Even thought it'll be hard. It'll be worth it. And I guess that's all that matters. :)
Anyways -- since this pregnancy has FLOWN by - I kind of thought we weren't going to get any maternity pictures this time around. However this past Saturday, our good friend (and photographer extraordinaire) Ryan, took a quick and last minute maternity shoot for us. HOORAY! The photos turned out so nice and I loved that he was able to capture this special time for us. A HUGE thanks to Ryan and his amazing talents. If you want to check out his other work (or possibly have him take some super awesome photos for yourself) head on over to Ryan Fedler Photography.
Enjoy the little slideshow!
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